Colliding Particles

Matter cannot exist unless particles are electromagnetically drawn together and stick.

Matter consists of two or more particles that happen to travel close enough to each other to be drawn to the other’s electromagnetic field.

Matter cannot be made of particles whose Valence electrons and charges are not compatible.

If matter tries to stick with particles with which it is not compatible, the bond will break. Most likely in an explosion.

Matter is like life; the pieces all have to be just right and wait to collide at the perfect moment.

This summer has been absolutely insane. I cannot be eloquent about how I feel about the summer, so here is my heart. I hope God conveys Himself through it:

I have grown to love the people of Orlando and its surrounding areas with a passion I know must be of God. I could not muster up this love on my own, or even pretend to love a people this much. I love ROCK ministries, I love the supervisory team, I love Kids Club and GKTW; I even love the puppet shows and church performances. I feel in my heart that God has called me to Orlando for beyond this summer- maybe even my life. In this city, I can see a need and thirst for the grace of our King; I see a group of internationals that cannot be reached if one travels to their country. I see natives burnt out by the tourism and wanting peace from the hustle and bustle. I see God reconciling all the “conflicting” desires He has put in my heart. I see God, and He is more beautiful than I could ever imagine.

“Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.”

Psalm 139

God led me to UT so I could join the BSM. God led me to the UT BSM so I could learn about GoNow. God led me to GoNow so I could plug into missions. He hid my passport from my eyes so I could not get out of the country this year. God led me to a certain page in the trip manuals that spoke of GKTW and a ministry in my own backyard. God led me to the international ministry that I thirst for. God has taken each area of my life and used it to lead me to His glorious plan. My life has been full of events-particles- that have floated around in the space of time, waiting for the right moment to collide and create matter. This matter makes up my life, the life God has planned for me.  His ways are not my ways and His thoughts are not mine, either. Each particle I have intentionally tried to attach to has not matched up; as in science, the bond was volatile and did not last. In fact, the breaking of the bond was often a painful event. But when I have waited on God’s timing and let Him create the bonds that are needed, they are permanent and stable. For nineteen years, I have been in Texas and Orlando has been in Florida. Though the bond between the location and me was needed, at any other time I would not have been ready for it. God allowed to me to float about until His timing came to collide and form and inseparable bond with this city for which my heart aches.

I encourage you to let God be the master scientist. Don’t seek bonds with particles that are not for your most stable existence. Wait, because when the time is right the perfect particles will collide.